| It's an interesting feeling to have. The feeling that something is off, that something just isn't right. You don't even notice it until someone points it out to you, but then it's impossible to ignore. It's a nagging feeling inside that you just can't wait to fix. The problem is I have to wait to fix it. It isn't going away any time soon, and this is where I'm stuck.
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| So I taught my junior high small group tonight and it was all about relying on God to be our provider. I think I got more out of it then they did. Abraham's willingness to sacrifice Isaac was the focal point of the story and it really hit me. God is our everything. He will provide for us if we let him. So many times I find myself trying to figure things out on my own. Trying so hard to keep myself afloat when really I just need to rely on God. He will be there for me when I need him to be. I wish I had complete trust in Him like Abraham had in that story. That is truly amazing to me. I think Abraham is a sweeet dude. I wish I could be more like him. I don't really know what i'm tryign to get at in this blog i'm just trying to get these random thoughts down out of my head. Mostly I just want to strive to fully put my trust in God. Instead of trying to handle things on my own. I think that's what I need to do. Jordan |
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| My God is BIG, and I'm starting to finally grasp that concept. I know it sounds stupid, but it's true. He's bigger than my problems and my worries, He has a reason for it all because he is bigger than it all. I love that, I LOVE that. I just keep thinking of the nooma about rain... I love you buddy, we're gonna make it! I love you buddy, we're gonna make it! I love you buddy, we're gonna make it |
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| So yeah I hit a light post with my car today. It was without a doubt the most frightening experience of my life. I mean I don't ever remember feeling the way I felt today. I was panicky, and worried, and emotions I can't even explain. I just couldn't really even take it all in. I was so taken aback by what I had just done. I just sat there with my hands on my head replaying the situation in my head. Thinking over and over, I cannot believe I just did this. The whole situation taught me alot of lessons though. I am so grateful for God's protection through the whole thing. It's so clear to me that he was watching over me protecting me. The post I hit was right in front of a tree, and if I would have hit the tree it would have been way worse. My sister and I both weren't hurt, and that's a miracle. Also I didn't end up getting a ticket. Which is another blessing. I learned a valuable lesson, and I managed to get away without any really serious consequences. I mean I need a new tire for my car, but that's really not that huge of a deal. Also, I know this is going to sound ridiculous, but it made me think alot too. It made me think about my life, and how much I appreciate it. The nooma we watched today pretty much brought it all together. Tomorrow isn't guranteed and we need to live our lives for today, not for tomorrow. I know that I didn't almost die, also I know that I didn't even get hurt. But it was enough to make me think long and hard about alot of things. And that is why in retrospect, me hitting that pole was a good thing and a blessing in disguise really. God taught me alot of things today, and it's really cool to see how he worked everything out. Like He knew that I was going to crash, so he lined everything up perfectly so everything would work out ok. It's crazy to think of the way He works. and I'm very grateful for it. |
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| i just hit a pole with my car.... it was so frightening. i'm freaking out right now |
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